… you struggle real hard at the start not to make any mistakes so that your quality level progresses quickly. you reach a level which is too difficult for your capacity or way out of your league. eventually you settle in a level where advances and setbacks don’t make too big a shift, and your level of quality is determined, via means of a score which represents how middle-class you are.
sometimes i wish i can be easily contented in life. but i guess that day will come. for now, i just have to keep fighting.